text from "What I Hear", 2006
The times when I listen to others is when I really try to feel what they feel or associate my thoughts with their thoughts and relate it in a way where I can understand the breath they are breathing in exhaling obsessively. I understand the obsessions.
I'm hearing the inbetween a lot right now. It is a neutral balance of both sides... above and below...in and out...mentally and physically. The perfect balance is calming and arousing at the same time. But the neutrality is a little numbing because I am so used to the peak of one or the other. The peaks are what drove me before but there is a constant... consistent place to go now. Is that my only driving source? I doubt that is my only driving source. I know it isn't. I am beginning to see the actuality of the balance. The perfect balance should be considered a peak, too. Maybe the balance I have always strived for is real. The floating balance pulling equally from all sides makes a humming sound with a faint heartbeat.
The things whispered in my ears from both sides are what I hear. Every angle is included making the whole.